Friday, January 22, 2010

I Remain Unconvinced

I dunno. The last couple days the pain has been better...I've been able to handle it with aspirin and ice. And it is centered almost entirely over my right cheek and the tooth that I have my suspicions about. And my sinus is filling up again and draining down the back of my throat in great rivers. I am still going ahead with the MRI, of course, but more and more I am thinking something bad has happened to this tooth.

Feh.

Pain is so weird. There were times over the last week that the pain was so bad that I couldn't imagine that it wasn't visible somehow. I mean, it was so bad that surely people looking at me were thinking, "Why is hot lava pouring out of that woman's cheek?" "Why is she sending out bolts of red electricity?" "Why is her face swollen to three times its size?" But to look at it...nothing. And describing the intensity of the pain is difficult. If the scale is 1 to 10, with 1 being no pain and 10 being unbearable pain, I would say this went up to 9 a lot more times than I really care to think about in hindsight. Pain that makes you clutch the affected part (or hold an ice pack to it) and close your eyes and just rock, or jiggle your foot, or bang your fist against the arm of the chair. And there were times when I was having fifteen minutes every hour or two where the pain would climb up to 9 and then slo-o-o-o-owly creep back down to 5 or 6 levels.

And it's also hard not to feel, when it's really hurting like that, that things aren't fracturing and exploding under your skin, that real physical damage isn't being done.

No fun.

And now I'll shut up about pain.

5 comments:

ml said...

Ah, jeez, honey. Quel extreme drag. That trigeminal neuralgis still in the differential?

Rooie said...

Ummm...if that means still not definitively diagnosed...then no. But we proceed onward!

Lisa said...

Oh awful. I hope you get to the bottom of that soon. I've had bad recurrent pain and it just sort of takes over... you can't remember what life was like without it. And then when it's gone you can barely remember what it was like having it. So hang onto that thought. You'll get there.

Kaethe said...

Oh, I'm hating it for you. I had that kind of pain with an abscessed tooth. It made "root canal" sound like a lovely idea.

Fingers crossed for you.

Rooie said...

Thanks to all of you. Today I feel pretty much okay except for one or two twinges...